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Post by Deleted on Nov 25, 2019 7:53:46 GMT
Getting through a tough time and realising you cant help everyone or be everything to everyone or live up to their expectations you just have to be true to yourself. Life goes on My friend i know exactly what you mean, my family with the wealth posh cars & fancy homes bragging about social status & then I'm born & instead of going with the flow i rebel against everything they stand for, i can tell you some of the partys i attended put a episode of Eastenders to shame, the conversations, "i brought a new BMV, oh i own a marvellous Porche goes 0-100 in 6 seconds, do you like my new Jaguar oh Simon over there look, oh Simon we discussing cars what car do you drive....... Timelord007. "Ford Fusion". I'm a bonkers eccentric bipolar manic depressive but rather be me with my own thoughts, opinions that a posh speaking yuppie which is what 90% my dad's family are, they think I'm mad, bad, dangerous to know because they never understood or got to know me & haven't a clue what i endured in my childhood which is why i suffer PTSD to this day.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 25, 2019 10:59:17 GMT
What made my day? Finally picking up a boxset I've been after for months on Ebay for an absolute bargain. 😊
What didn't make my day? Finding out my wealthy sister and her husband won £863 on the Lottery while on the same draw I won £2.90. I'm not bitter, twisted or jealous about it, but...... 😡
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Post by Deleted on Nov 25, 2019 12:46:47 GMT
Made my day.
My friend Tim Bradley getting recognition in two stories of 'The Paul Spragg ReCollections' anthology by the Divergent Wordsmiths, I been championing BF for years to see Tim's work who has written some truly outstanding stories on his Bradley's Basement blog.
Not made my day.
Aussiedoctorwhofan is in hospital,i had a message & photo from him with a thumbs up, rest up ya flaming mongrel & get better soon.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 26, 2019 0:08:49 GMT
Made my day. My friend Tim Bradley getting recognition in two stories of 'The Paul Spragg ReCollections' anthology by the Divergent Wordsmiths, I been championing BF for years to see Tim's work who has written some truly outstanding stories on his Bradley's Basement blog. Not made my day. Aussiedoctorwhofan is in hospital,i had a message & photo from him with a thumbs up, rest up ya flaming mongrel & get better soon. Hope to see you back soon, Aussie. *fist bump* (If anyone's not read one of Tim's latest stories, The Prime Factor, you really should. It's the Fifth Doctor vs. Maxil story I never knew I wanted, but desperately needed. I've never seen the Time Lords used in quite this way before.)
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Post by Deleted on Nov 26, 2019 6:06:06 GMT
Getting through a tough time and realising you cant help everyone or be everything to everyone or live up to their expectations you just have to be true to yourself. Life goes on My friend i know exactly what you mean, my family with the wealth posh cars & fancy homes bragging about social status & then I'm born & instead of going with the flow i rebel against everything they stand for, i can tell you some of the partys i attended put a episode of Eastenders to shame, the conversations, "i brought a new BMV, oh i own a marvellous Porche goes 0-100 in 6 seconds, do you like my new Jaguar oh Simon over there look, oh Simon we discussing cars what car do you drive....... Timelord007. "Ford Fusion". I'm a bonkers eccentric bipolar manic depressive but rather be me with my own thoughts, opinions that a posh speaking yuppie which is what 90% my dad's family are, they think I'm mad, bad, dangerous to know because they never understood or got to know me & haven't a clue what i endured in my childhood which is why i suffer PTSD to this day. I get bad depressions too but am better at coming out of them now and recognising. I try to make people happy have a laugh and a joke but sometimes folks don’t know how to take me . I don’t care genuinely about money or status.But am not anyone’s saviour. i unintentionally hurt people yes but it’s never intentional there is always a misreading of my intentions. Anyways another day ahead of trying to keep my negative thoughts at bay...before they spiral
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Post by Tim Bradley on Nov 26, 2019 6:19:48 GMT
Made my day. My friend Tim Bradley getting recognition in two stories of 'The Paul Spragg ReCollections' anthology by the Divergent Wordsmiths, I been championing BF for years to see Tim's work who has written some truly outstanding stories on his Bradley's Basement blog. Not made my day. Aussiedoctorwhofan is in hospital,i had a message & photo from him with a thumbs up, rest up ya flaming mongrel & get better soon. Hope to see you back soon, Aussie. *fist bump* (If anyone's not read one of Tim's latest stories, The Prime Factor, you really should. It's the Fifth Doctor vs. Maxil story I never knew I wanted, but desperately needed. I've never seen the Time Lords used in quite this way before.) Thanks Wolfie.
Very pleased I've impessed you with 'The Prime Factor' so far! I had fun writing it, including Maxil with the Fifth Doctor, Nyssa and Billy as well as cameos of past and future Doctors and companions. The story does contain quite a few surprises for those wishing to read it.
Tim.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 26, 2019 18:12:13 GMT
I yearn for the day's when i wasn't racing around, took dad doctor's yearly check up, helping mom finish housework, cooking dinner & now feeling tired, dunno whether to doze off or fight tiredness, being dad's Co carer wears down the batteries.
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Post by shutupbanks on Nov 26, 2019 20:33:01 GMT
Made my day. My friend Tim Bradley getting recognition in two stories of 'The Paul Spragg ReCollections' anthology by the Divergent Wordsmiths, I been championing BF for years to see Tim's work who has written some truly outstanding stories on his Bradley's Basement blog. Not made my day. Aussiedoctorwhofan is in hospital,i had a message & photo from him with a thumbs up, rest up ya flaming mongrel & get better soon. Get better soon, doctorwhofan (as we call you over here) and well done, Tim!
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Post by barnabaslives on Nov 26, 2019 22:56:22 GMT
I yearn for the day's when i wasn't racing around, took dad doctor's yearly check up, helping mom finish housework, cooking dinner & now feeling tired, dunno whether to doze off or fight tiredness, being dad's Co carer wears down the batteries. I really hope you can get a counselor or social worker to help establish some boundaries, like "Timelord007 is not actually your cook, taxi driver, whipping boy, etc", and maybe some kind of personal support worker or respite care to help pitch in with the duties. I don't know how things work over there but I'm thinking things may generally be along those lines since these are basic human care needs, and might be paid for as such. Remember, its going to be hard to care for anyone if you wear yourself out, your well being needs to come first.
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Post by barnabaslives on Nov 26, 2019 23:00:15 GMT
I get bad depressions too but am better at coming out of them now and recognising. I try to make people happy have a laugh and a joke but sometimes folks don’t know how to take me . I don’t care genuinely about money or status.But am not anyone’s saviour. i unintentionally hurt people yes but it’s never intentional there is always a misreading of my intentions. Anyways another day ahead of trying to keep my negative thoughts at bay...before they spiral Chin up, my friend - being misunderstood happens to the best of us, and it often takes someone going out of their way to do it. Your efforts to put a smile on people's faces are much appreciated here. I've been going through some pretty dark times and the repartee between you and doctorwho has made my day many times. Your wonderful enthusiasm for Big Finish has often brightened my day too. Many thanks for that!
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Post by aussiedoctorwhofan on Nov 27, 2019 1:01:12 GMT
Hello everyone, I am home now. Spent a "lovely" 2 days in hospital. I am still high as a kite with some yummy drugs so no power tools are to be used by me LOL. And no driving for 1-2 weeks as well.! At least the burning fire of my internal organs has stopped, I have had 10 hours sleep in the last 3 days WOO HOO!
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Post by Deleted on Nov 27, 2019 5:07:16 GMT
I get bad depressions too but am better at coming out of them now and recognising. I try to make people happy have a laugh and a joke but sometimes folks don’t know how to take me . I don’t care genuinely about money or status.But am not anyone’s saviour. i unintentionally hurt people yes but it’s never intentional there is always a misreading of my intentions. Anyways another day ahead of trying to keep my negative thoughts at bay...before they spiral Chin up, my friend - being misunderstood happens to the best of us, and it often takes someone going out of their way to do it. Your efforts to put a smile on people's faces are much appreciated here. I've been going through some pretty dark times and the repartee between you and doctorwho has made my day many times. Your wonderful enthusiasm for Big Finish has often brightened my day too. Many thanks for that! Well at least it makes someone happy 🤪
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Post by Deleted on Nov 27, 2019 5:08:19 GMT
Hello everyone, I am home now. Spent a "lovely" 2 days in hospital. I am still high as a kite with some yummy drugs so no power tools are to be used by me LOL. And no driving for 1-2 weeks as well.! At least the burning fire of my internal organs has stopped, I have had 10 hours sleep in the last 3 days WOO HOO! Hope you get better soon my friend
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Post by aussiedoctorwhofan on Nov 27, 2019 5:33:35 GMT
Hello everyone, I am home now. Spent a "lovely" 2 days in hospital. I am still high as a kite with some yummy drugs so no power tools are to be used by me LOL. And no driving for 1-2 weeks as well.! At least the burning fire of my internal organs has stopped, I have had 10 hours sleep in the last 3 days WOO HOO! Hope you get better soon my friend Thanks, I promptly smashed a 2 hr sleep when I got home, I am still light headed and woozy, so no BF listening for the next day or 2 because I can't concentrate DOH :-(
I am still processing the Chris Eccleston comment I read on facebook a couple days ago about "taking the BF call" LOLZ!
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Post by Deleted on Nov 27, 2019 5:41:51 GMT
Hope you get better soon my friend Thanks, I promptly smashed a 2 hr sleep when I got home, I am still light headed and woozy, so no BF listening for the next day or 2 because I can't concentrate DOH :-(
I am still processing the Chris Eccleston comment I read on facebook a couple days ago about "taking the BF call" LOLZ!
Yeas take it easy. Chris and BF oh things I never hear lol. I would be nice if he can put behind his bad experiences and realise BF isn’t BBC
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Post by Deleted on Nov 27, 2019 7:28:51 GMT
Hope you get better soon my friend Thanks, I promptly smashed a 2 hr sleep when I got home, I am still light headed and woozy, so no BF listening for the next day or 2 because I can't concentrate DOH :-(
I am still processing the Chris Eccleston comment I read on facebook a couple days ago about "taking the BF call" LOLZ!
Lay off the Fosters ya flaming mongrel lol, glad your home bro, rest up & relax you know ya me bro from another mother so recuperate in time for Christmas. Oh did you put a good word in with the hot nurses for me, I'm currently ooking for a Australian girlfriend LOL.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 27, 2019 7:40:19 GMT
I yearn for the day's when i wasn't racing around, took dad doctor's yearly check up, helping mom finish housework, cooking dinner & now feeling tired, dunno whether to doze off or fight tiredness, being dad's Co carer wears down the batteries. I really hope you can get a counselor or social worker to help establish some boundaries, like "Timelord007 is not actually your cook, taxi driver, whipping boy, etc", and maybe some kind of personal support worker or respite care to help pitch in with the duties. I don't know how things work over there but I'm thinking things may generally be along those lines since these are basic human care needs, and might be paid for as such. Remember, its going to be hard to care for anyone if you wear yourself out, your well being neweds to come first. Whipping boy is spot on my friend, had take him to check up yesterday but was told a hour beforehand, the appointment hadn't been wrote on the calendar & he'd stashed the letter in his blue folder were he likes to look through what apps he got coming up. Thank God he ain't got my illness cause he'd never cope, he quite capable doing lot more than he does but mom pampers him then rants about gets her down so told her she made rod for her own back & let him do more, i wouldn't be so angry if he'd try be more independent but he loves the attention. I accept he can't drive anymore but he having eye surgery next year which will improve his vision but despite breaking hip 2 yrs ago he walks with crutches which is psychosomatic cause hip fine now he just scared falling. That fall 2 yrs ago literally ruined mine & my mom's life, we now have work our time around him, what more annoying is he ain't a invalid but assumes our duty to fetch, carry & drive him everywhere, i still resent how i was treated during my adolescent when i was abused by neighbour & they swept it under the carpet not getting me the help i needed, so i had wait till i was 18 to get help meaning i suffered ocd, mood swings, dark suicidal thoughts & crippling depression, if it weren't for my nan I'd ended it she was the one who kept me going, who held my hand & hugged me when i wake up crying. And yet despite this i still help my parents? But it seems me finding any sort of peace or happiness a long way off.
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Post by tuigirl on Nov 27, 2019 13:31:05 GMT
Was able to take the day off. Halleluja. Rare occasion.
On the one hand, this is good. Free time!
On the other hand... In the darker time of the year, I often struggle with my mood. It is something I experience every year and I have come to live with it. Does not mean it is easy, and had another out of the blue panic attack last weekend which still affects me today. Work is usually a good way to distract myself. Sitting at home on a dark grey day.... not ideal. However, decided on some retail therapy and just went out and bought two awesome new jumpers on sale. Right now I am also treating myself to cooking one of my favorite dishes, chilly chicken with curry vegetable rice. Already smells fantastic...
I also wanted to sit down and read some books... still have not finished the Target Storybook, and the new Invisible Library book came out a couple of weeks ago (I adore this series!). And I also have some nice audios to look forward to.
It is just a question of being able to relax and sit down and being able to enjoy without having the back of your mind freaking out about some unspecific indeterminable thing.
I also have to option for my evening Yoga class, might do that, I find it often helps.
So my greeting goes out to all of you who also struggle right now. Keep at it. You are not alone.
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Post by fingersmash on Nov 27, 2019 14:38:21 GMT
Was able to take the day off. Halleluja. Rare occasion. On the one hand, this is good. Free time! On the other hand... In the darker time of the year, I often struggle with my mood. It is something I experience every year and I have come to live with it. Does not mean it is easy, and had another out of the blue panic attack last weekend which still affects me today. Work is usually a good way to distract myself. Sitting at home on a dark grey day.... not ideal. However, decided on some retail therapy and just went out and bought two awesome new jumpers on sale. Right now I am also treating myself to cooking one of my favorite dishes, chilly chicken with curry vegetable rice. Already smells fantastic... I also wanted to sit down and read some books... still have not finished the Target Storybook, and the new Invisible Library book came out a couple of weeks ago (I adore this series!). And I also have some nice audios to look forward to. It is just a question of being able to relax and sit down and being able to enjoy without having the back of your mind freaking out about some unspecific indeterminable thing. I also have to option for my evening Yoga class, might do that, I find it often helps. So my greeting goes out to all of you who also struggle right now. Keep at it. You are not alone. Ah yes. That lovely seasonal depression. Happens to me too. Sending good vibes your way tuigirl.
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Post by tuigirl on Nov 27, 2019 14:43:03 GMT
Hello everyone, I am home now. Spent a "lovely" 2 days in hospital. I am still high as a kite with some yummy drugs so no power tools are to be used by me LOL. And no driving for 1-2 weeks as well.! At least the burning fire of my internal organs has stopped, I have had 10 hours sleep in the last 3 days WOO HOO! I am happy to have you back! Well, since you do not have a lot of choice, at least enjoy the drugs while they last. Get better soon!
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