Post by timegirl on Feb 4, 2020 21:03:35 GMT
I have gone through a lot of really stressful things recently (my boyfriend of 5 years breaking up with me being the most recent) and this is going to probably sound crazy (I don’t care) but I would have never have been able to get through them as well as I have if it wasn’t for watching Doctor Who and the 12th Doctor in particular! What It helped me escape and taught me life changing lessons!
My boyfriend breaking up with me made me realize that like 12 I had been conforming to some impossibly high expectations that weren’t who I was. Yes my boyfriend loved things about me but he wanted me to conform into something I wasn’t, which I was blind to because I loved him. When my boyfriend broke up with me I screamed, cried, begged for him to take me back but then I remembered something.....
the “I am an idiot” speech!
I realized I put off my dreams of becoming a professional actor, as well as other creative passions because my boyfriend said I should have a real job. I was discouraged from traveling and exploring the world past my 20’s because my boyfriend said I would be too old to do travel in a few years, and I had to settle down to one location and focus on a practical career. I felt self conscious and apologetic about being my weird, creative, explorative self.
But I wasn’t going to anymore because remembering the “I am an idiot” speech made me realize that I am not some complacent conformist drone of someone’s girlfriend. I am a crazy artistic, weird, passionate, curious wanderer and that is more than okay.
youtu.be/uPjJ_VAubRs
I also was terrified of being lonely and if I could do all these things but then I remembered that “scared is a superpower” and that I needed to use my fear not as a way to be discouraged but as a motivator. And I needed to use that fear of loneliness to make friends and eventually I will also find other relationships but this time I won’t conform to their ideals they would have to love me as I am.
youtu.be/MQvLgO-yMyA
Thank you Doctor Who and thank you Twelfth Doctor, I literally don’t know what I would do without you!💙💙
Beautiful words.
Thank you 😊