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Post by tuigirl on Aug 1, 2021 17:48:50 GMT
This continues to not be my week. Besides having to work way the heck far away again today: So, I hate bugs. It's not exactly a phobia per se, I don't see them and panic (or like some people I know, hop up onto a chair) or anything like that. I just find them utterly revolting, at a base, animalistic level. I see something with more than four legs, that disgusting little monster needs to be crushed now. Today I get home from my long commute, come upstairs to my place, let myself in....what what do I find? Dozens and dozens of ants crawling all over my living room floor. And not even the little tiny kind of ants, the especially gross big ones that are a cm or more in length, and crunch when you try to squish them. Revolted on an instinctive level would be an understatement. And also completely confused, as I never ever leave food out -- precisely because I know that it attracts bugs. Vacuum vacuum vacuum vacuum to suck as many of the little horrors up as I can. Keep feeling like I've finally got them all, then all of a sudden there are two more, and two more, and two more. So I run out to get traps and Raid and so on, come back, put out all the traps, spray the hell out of the entire place with the Raid. All the while I know that my brain has gone onto autopilot to deal with the sheer revulsion I'm feeling right down to my bones. I finally finish putting out the traps, spraying Raid everywhere, vacuuming, throwing out absolutely everything that could even possibly attract a bug's attention, cleaning....my brain finally settles down, and I realize that I have been at this for three hours. I had no idea how much time had elapsed, it felt like maybe half an hour. I do a tally of everything I've done and realize that I bought $40 worth of bug killing stuff, laid out twenty-two ant traps (in my one bedroom apartment), and sprayed every crack and crevasse I could get at with so much Raid that the fumes of it in my apartment are a little overpowering. I've had to turn on the oven fan, bathroom fan, and open the balcony, just to air things out a little. I have the next two days off. Crossing my fingers (toes, legs, arms, eyes) that things are a bit more settled. Update: It has been 17 hours since I concluded my major counteroffensive, and in that time I have only come across two live ones -- one last night, one when I got out of bed this morning. Progress! I feel your pain. I am just now fighting a entrenched war against clothing moths. I introduced them to my flat with my old kangaroo pelt that has been sitting in my parents attic for a decade and I now handed it on my wall. Sadly, it had some inhabitants. I have now filled my flat with sticky traps and lavender bags.
Not sure yet which side is winning. But I dearly hope they have not yet invaded my possum fur winter clothes which are one of my treasures. And probably the most yummiest of my clothing. If they take that, I would take it VERY personal. Nuking of my flat would be a last resort.
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Post by tuigirl on Aug 1, 2021 17:53:53 GMT
I’m thinking about taking a break from forum after today, I just feel too upset and heartbroken to discuss DW thinking that I may never see my favorite Doctor again😞 I feel extremely stupid and embarrassed to be this upset when people have much worse things going on than me. I guess it hits really hard because of how much Peter and his Doctor helped me through difficult times in my life and how it’s a dream of mine to write for him if he ever came to BF ( I even took two writing courses just so I could learn how properly). I am try to combat those feelings but that interview just took out all the joy out of me for being a Whovian. I even don’t like looking at my beautiful room will all the lovely young 12 and Clara artwork because it just reminds me of all the stories I will never get to write for him. I don’t understand how Peter couldn’t see how special he and his Doctor is to people and it breaks my heart that he doesn’t see what him coming back means to people. I want to feel joy and happiness about DW and 12 again and I hope Peter changes his mind. Right now I just feel numb. I don’t know how long of a break I will take after today it could be a few days, a week or a month. Take as long as you feel you need but try and not pin all your hopes on one thing. Capaldi is heading for his mid-60s and will probably want to take advantage of as many roles as he can get before time sees him offered only the old man/grandad/wise sage etc kinda roles. He's got a lot still to do and if it's not in Doctor Who, remind yourself you're a Capaldi fan, not just a 12th Doctor one. I've been watching him for 25 years or so and wanted him in the role since the show came back - but he's done his stint. BF is an extra we've been lucky enough most Docs and companions want to do (for a lot of the classic actors who didn't have big careers after the show it was a gig the same as any other, for bigger stars, more of a hobby) but that doesn't mean they're obliged to do BF. You will, sadly, have to come to terms with that the longer that he isn't around otherwise you'll find a lot of creative time wasted on something that isn't happening. You must have other Doctors and companions you like. Capaldi is my fave but I love Troughton, Colin, Smith and McGann. You're much more likely to find a bit more success if you broaden your spectrum. I know for a fact - without naming names - there are BF writers who have written for TARDIS teams they didn't like very much on TV. I don't think it's fair to Capaldi to say he doesn't see what his return would mean to people. I'd say of any actor in the role bar maybe Tennant he knows that very well. But he's not going to do anything that isn't right for the character or for him as an actor or person. He's given us enough, surely, to earn that freedom of choice. Yeah, I agree. Try to spread out your obsessions a bit. Acquire a few more. Switch them around. Does not necessarily need to be only Doctor Who. I also follow Star Trek, Marvel (mainly comics) and the most popular German pop culture cult.
Move them around, mix them up.
Also, I am pretty sure Capaldi will be back. Maybe not soon, but he will be.
And please do not abandon your lovely paintings and the joy you had with them. I always keep my fandom items, and like my Star Trek autographs, which had been sitting in my parent's cellar for more than a decade, I recently got them back out, dusted them off and now they are back on my wall.
You never know when you fall back in love again.
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Post by Digi on Aug 1, 2021 17:54:46 GMT
Update: It has been 17 hours since I concluded my major counteroffensive, and in that time I have only come across two live ones -- one last night, one when I got out of bed this morning. Progress! I feel your pain. I am just now fighting a entrenched war against clothing moths. I introduced them to my flat with my old kangaroo pelt that has been sitting in my parents attic for a decade and I now handed it on my wall. Sadly, it had some inhabitants. I have now filled my flat with sticky traps and lavender bags.
Not sure yet which side is winning. But I dearly hope they have not yet invaded my possum fur winter clothes which are one of my treasures. And probably the most yummiest of my clothing. If they take that, I would take it VERY personal. Nuking of my flat would be a last resort.
Right there with you. The "nuke it from orbit, it's the only way to be sure" approach crossed my mind too
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Post by barnabaslives on Aug 1, 2021 18:20:27 GMT
Another thing- This forum here is not just a place to discuss BF or Doctor Who. It is also a wonderful community. It is a loving and quiet place on the Internet, a place that is warm and welcoming and where a lot of nice people dwell. I would not want to be without that. Right now, I am obsessed with other things and have not listened to BF for a while, but I know, sooner or later I come back. But while this happens, I still come here to chill and chat.
I avoid most of the release discussions to avoid unnecessary spoilers until I am in the mood to listen. But I still visit the general section quite often.
The people here are my kind of crazy.
People on here have become my friends, and I would certainly miss you.
But no pressure. Take your time. Same here, word for word. Sending you and timegirl both great big hugs!
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Post by coffeeaddict on Aug 1, 2021 23:23:04 GMT
This continues to not be my week. Besides having to work way the heck far away again today: So, I hate bugs. It's not exactly a phobia per se, I don't see them and panic (or like some people I know, hop up onto a chair) or anything like that. I just find them utterly revolting, at a base, animalistic level. I see something with more than four legs, that disgusting little monster needs to be crushed now. Today I get home from my long commute, come upstairs to my place, let myself in....what what do I find? Dozens and dozens of ants crawling all over my living room floor. And not even the little tiny kind of ants, the especially gross big ones that are a cm or more in length, and crunch when you try to squish them. Revolted on an instinctive level would be an understatement. And also completely confused, as I never ever leave food out -- precisely because I know that it attracts bugs. Vacuum vacuum vacuum vacuum to suck as many of the little horrors up as I can. Keep feeling like I've finally got them all, then all of a sudden there are two more, and two more, and two more. So I run out to get traps and Raid and so on, come back, put out all the traps, spray the hell out of the entire place with the Raid. All the while I know that my brain has gone onto autopilot to deal with the sheer revulsion I'm feeling right down to my bones. I finally finish putting out the traps, spraying Raid everywhere, vacuuming, throwing out absolutely everything that could even possibly attract a bug's attention, cleaning....my brain finally settles down, and I realize that I have been at this for three hours. I had no idea how much time had elapsed, it felt like maybe half an hour. I do a tally of everything I've done and realize that I bought $40 worth of bug killing stuff, laid out twenty-two ant traps (in my one bedroom apartment), and sprayed every crack and crevasse I could get at with so much Raid that the fumes of it in my apartment are a little overpowering. I've had to turn on the oven fan, bathroom fan, and open the balcony, just to air things out a little. I have the next two days off. Crossing my fingers (toes, legs, arms, eyes) that things are a bit more settled. Update: It has been 17 hours since I concluded my major counteroffensive, and in that time I have only come across two live ones -- one last night, one when I got out of bed this morning. Progress! Any chance they could be carpenter ants? My last apartment had that - they were in the closet doors. After I pulled those out and killed all the ants everything was fine.
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There’s a horror movie called Alien? That’s really offensive. No wonder everyone keeps invading you.
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Post by shutupbanks on Aug 1, 2021 23:34:53 GMT
I’m thinking about taking a break from forum after today, I just feel too upset and heartbroken to discuss DW thinking that I may never see my favorite Doctor again😞 I feel extremely stupid and embarrassed to be this upset when people have much worse things going on than me. I guess it hits really hard because of how much Peter and his Doctor helped me through difficult times in my life and how it’s a dream of mine to write for him if he ever came to BF ( I even took two writing courses just so I could learn how properly). I am try to combat those feelings but that interview just took out all the joy out of me for being a Whovian. I even don’t like looking at my beautiful room will all the lovely young 12 and Clara artwork because it just reminds me of all the stories I will never get to write for him. I don’t understand how Peter couldn’t see how special he and his Doctor is to people and it breaks my heart that he doesn’t see what him coming back means to people. I want to feel joy and happiness about DW and 12 again and I hope Peter changes his mind. Right now I just feel numb. I don’t know how long of a break I will take after today it could be a few days, a week or a month. Take all the time you need. I’ve pulled back a bit because of recent events, both personal and wider world, but I still pop in and read things simply because this place covers several of my interests and the company - yourself included - is a joy. I just don’t participate as much. Look after yourself and take care… and remember the other Doctors who also said they’d had enough… for now.
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Post by elkawho on Aug 2, 2021 2:03:26 GMT
It's been a pretty rough weekend. It started on Friday when waking at 4:30 AM and finding Harper playing video games in the living room. I've been dealing with resistance from her regarding working or starting back at school, so this was like a slap in the face. I was a zombie all day at work and crashed when I got home for a bit. I worked overtime on Saturday to make some extra cash, which meant I worked about 55 hours this week. Then today my 18 year old, Evan, got into a car accident. With my 3 week old car. I haven't even made the first payment on that car yet. Thank God he's ok, however I will now be paying through the nose for car insurance.
People always say infancy, the "terrible" twos, pre-teen years, etc are "the worst" when it comes to raising children. I disagree. The early adult years beat them all!
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Post by timegirl on Aug 2, 2021 3:20:05 GMT
Before I take my break from the forum, I just wanted to say thank you for being so kind to me today. I feel a bit like I was hit by a bus today. I am sad but I am still hopeful Peter will change his mind one day and return to DW. Maybe if no one else does I could even be the one to convince him to come back one day. Thank you for not judging me for being so upset about this. Well I’m gone could people please keep my “One Line Story” thread going? I want to read the happy ending for 12 and Clara and their kids when I get back! Everyone take care and if you are having a hard time for any reason, know that things will be better. You are all special! Not sure how long my break will be it could be anywhere from a few days to a month but don’t worry I will be back to the forum one day! Have a virtual hug!🤗💙💙
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Post by Deleted on Aug 2, 2021 3:34:18 GMT
Before I take my break from the forum, I just wanted to say thank you for being so kind to me today. I feel a bit like I was hit by a bus today. I am sad but I am still hopeful Peter will change his mind one day and return to DW. Maybe if no one else does I could even be the one to convince him to come back one day. Thank you for not judging me for being so upset about this. Well I’m gone could people please keep my “One Line Story” thread going? I want to read the happy ending for 12 and Clara and their kids when I get back! Everyone take care and if you are having a hard time for any reason, know that things will be better. You are all special! Not sure how long my break will be it could be anywhere from a few days to a month but don’t worry I will be back to the forum one day! Have a virtual hug!🤗💙💙 Good luck with your sabbatical, timegirl. We'll keep the home fires burning while you're gone. (And I'll let you know when it has published.) Best wishes from here.
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There’s a horror movie called Alien? That’s really offensive. No wonder everyone keeps invading you.
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Post by shutupbanks on Aug 2, 2021 6:42:08 GMT
It's been a pretty rough weekend. It started on Friday when waking at 4:30 AM and finding Harper playing video games in the living room. I've been dealing with resistance from her regarding working or starting back at school, so this was like a slap in the face. I was a zombie all day at work and crashed when I got home for a bit. I worked overtime on Saturday to make some extra cash, which meant I worked about 55 hours this week. Then today my 18 year old, Evan, got into a car accident. With my 3 week old car. I haven't even made the first payment on that car yet. Thank God he's ok, however I will now be paying through the nose for car insurance. People always say infancy, the "terrible" twos, pre-teen years, etc are "the worst" when it comes to raising children. I disagree. The early adult years beat them all! Ouch! From experience, the worst part of parenting is all of it. It never ends, even when they move out. Fortunately, it can also be great. I hope everything turns out with the best possible outcome.
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Post by Timelord007 on Aug 2, 2021 8:22:25 GMT
I’m thinking about taking a break from forum after today, I just feel too upset and heartbroken to discuss DW thinking that I may never see my favorite Doctor again😞 I feel extremely stupid and embarrassed to be this upset when people have much worse things going on than me. I guess it hits really hard because of how much Peter and his Doctor helped me through difficult times in my life and how it’s a dream of mine to write for him if he ever came to BF ( I even took two writing courses just so I could learn how properly). I am try to combat those feelings but that interview just took out all the joy out of me for being a Whovian. I even don’t like looking at my beautiful room will all the lovely young 12 and Clara artwork because it just reminds me of all the stories I will never get to write for him. I don’t understand how Peter couldn’t see how special he and his Doctor is to people and it breaks my heart that he doesn’t see what him coming back means to people. I want to feel joy and happiness about DW and 12 again and I hope Peter changes his mind. Right now I just feel numb. I don’t know how long of a break I will take after today it could be a few days, a week or a month. Tom Bakers my Doctor his adventures helped me through some very dark times & i used to get upset when he'd rant about Big Finish & throwing scripts they sent him in the bin. But in 2012 Tom recorded his first stories & loves Big Finish now so i still think Peter Capaldi will record some BF audios in the near future & don't forget you always be able watch his adventures on DVD.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 2, 2021 10:04:54 GMT
Before I take my break from the forum, I just wanted to say thank you for being so kind to me today. I feel a bit like I was hit by a bus today. I am sad but I am still hopeful Peter will change his mind one day and return to DW. Maybe if no one else does I could even be the one to convince him to come back one day. Thank you for not judging me for being so upset about this. Well I’m gone could people please keep my “One Line Story” thread going? I want to read the happy ending for 12 and Clara and their kids when I get back! Everyone take care and if you are having a hard time for any reason, know that things will be better. You are all special! Not sure how long my break will be it could be anywhere from a few days to a month but don’t worry I will be back to the forum one day! Have a virtual hug!🤗💙💙 Good luck with your sabbatical, timegirl. We'll keep the home fires burning while you're gone. (And I'll let you know when it has published.) Best wishes from here. Speaking of it (and this came out rather nicely)...
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Post by Deleted on Aug 2, 2021 12:33:58 GMT
Finished giving my bedroom walls a fresh coat of paint.
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Post by nucleusofswarm on Aug 2, 2021 13:14:21 GMT
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Post by johnhurtdoctor on Aug 2, 2021 13:15:53 GMT
Good luck with your sabbatical, timegirl. We'll keep the home fires burning while you're gone. (And I'll let you know when it has published.) Best wishes from here. Speaking of it (and this came out rather nicely)... Post orgasm warm glow
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Post by Deleted on Aug 2, 2021 13:54:32 GMT
A different sort of afterglow, in this case. A very, very short story about how difficult it can be sometimes to have an ordinary day. Especially for the Doctor. Well done to timegirl for writing and submitting it to us.
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Post by johnhurtdoctor on Aug 2, 2021 18:15:06 GMT
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Post by tuigirl on Aug 2, 2021 19:27:45 GMT
I am now aunt to my third niece! Her name is Emma. So now I have 3 nieces and once nephew. In further news, I have a new mobile phone since my old one had died on the weekend. I am still challenged. But I managed to install whatsapp and the Big Finish app (plus Amazon Music for my German crap ).
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Post by Digi on Aug 2, 2021 20:43:44 GMT
This continues to not be my week. Besides having to work way the heck far away again today: So, I hate bugs. It's not exactly a phobia per se, I don't see them and panic (or like some people I know, hop up onto a chair) or anything like that. I just find them utterly revolting, at a base, animalistic level. I see something with more than four legs, that disgusting little monster needs to be crushed now. Today I get home from my long commute, come upstairs to my place, let myself in....what what do I find? Dozens and dozens of ants crawling all over my living room floor. And not even the little tiny kind of ants, the especially gross big ones that are a cm or more in length, and crunch when you try to squish them. Revolted on an instinctive level would be an understatement. And also completely confused, as I never ever leave food out -- precisely because I know that it attracts bugs. Vacuum vacuum vacuum vacuum to suck as many of the little horrors up as I can. Keep feeling like I've finally got them all, then all of a sudden there are two more, and two more, and two more. So I run out to get traps and Raid and so on, come back, put out all the traps, spray the hell out of the entire place with the Raid. All the while I know that my brain has gone onto autopilot to deal with the sheer revulsion I'm feeling right down to my bones. I finally finish putting out the traps, spraying Raid everywhere, vacuuming, throwing out absolutely everything that could even possibly attract a bug's attention, cleaning....my brain finally settles down, and I realize that I have been at this for three hours. I had no idea how much time had elapsed, it felt like maybe half an hour. I do a tally of everything I've done and realize that I bought $40 worth of bug killing stuff, laid out twenty-two ant traps (in my one bedroom apartment), and sprayed every crack and crevasse I could get at with so much Raid that the fumes of it in my apartment are a little overpowering. I've had to turn on the oven fan, bathroom fan, and open the balcony, just to air things out a little. I have the next two days off. Crossing my fingers (toes, legs, arms, eyes) that things are a bit more settled. Update: It has been 17 hours since I concluded my major counteroffensive, and in that time I have only come across two live ones -- one last night, one when I got out of bed this morning. Progress! Updated update: Zero ants since previous post!
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Post by Deleted on Aug 3, 2021 0:47:59 GMT
We're not going to be able to attend the funeral for my grandmother.
We've gone into lockdown here, the service is a city away and the only person who was able to make it up was my father. There was just too much going on down here for us to leave. He has his father and his siblings, but he is going to be otherwise alone delivering the eulogy for his mother. We can't be there for him. Not physically. The funeral is expected to be this Friday. We're not out of lockdown until Sunday.
This has been different from other circumstances in the past, as we knew from the outset this was coming. We knew for a number of years. There was time to prepare, grow used to the idea and accept it. Nevertheless, on some level, there's quite a bit of anger there. Anger at not being able to be there when it's most important. I can't say I blame them. The hardest part now isn't grieving, but not being given the space to help loved ones grieve. We've been in this situation before and we're now in it again. It's not easy.
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