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Post by Deleted on Nov 20, 2021 9:21:53 GMT
There just ignorant imbeciles if they lost someone to Covid there opinions soon change, i had ambulance out twice when i had it my poor mom thought going lose her husband & her son in same week. One of the worst weeks of my life, losing dad, not being able see him because restrictions & me being infected, having to lie on phone telling him everything going be alright get well come home knowing full well he wasn't has completely broken me. I will never be the same again something inside me has died. Seeing these idiots protesting makes my blood boil & I'm going have take step back out this thread because it bringing back memories I'd rather not think about. I know there morons, as you know I’m a bit sick at moment and going to hospital at least once a week……there are about 8 of the idiots, always there, hassling everyone as they get off the bus or walk to main entrance from the car park…… you take care of yourself…….let someone else get upset…… you hold on to your memories, good and bad make us who we are…. . I lost one of my friends just last week to it, they think he caught it on a bus while on holiday…….7 days after he got back we lost him…. stay strong my friend. I hope your health improves soon my friend you look after yourself & thank you for the kind words. This year has seen me as a person change, i don't know if that good or bad because i don't know myself, I'm so angry at how my dad's passing went without closure & that he died alone & afraid, the images come in my mind & then i get angry, I'm talking to a councillor about this but they at loss because this isn't about coping after loss it's about having closure taken away from me. For years i had a bad relationship with my dad he wasn't the kindest of men to me but great to my mom and his family, he never accepted me for being mentally ill & belittled me or hit me in public many times if i misbehaved as he wouldn't accept i had bipolar despite it not being known back then you'd thought he'd taken me see doctor explain my OCD & mood swings but he swept it under the carpet. However when he had fall broke hip in 2017 in hospital post operation he completely changed, he embraced me hugged me got emotional & became a dad i wanted growing up & we eventually grew close during those last 4 years. If the dad who i grew up with had passed away i wouldn't be as upset i would have been well you didn't respect me or get me the help i needed so go to hell but because he changed & we bonded & became close his loss hit me hard it's like i finally have a dad who shows me love and affection & now that been taken from me. Maybe i just rambling & feeling sorry for myself, i should be thankful i had those 4 years but i just feel at a loss because i couldn't be there hold his hand and say i forgive you & love you.
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Post by tuigirl on Nov 20, 2021 14:28:03 GMT
I know there morons, as you know I’m a bit sick at moment and going to hospital at least once a week……there are about 8 of the idiots, always there, hassling everyone as they get off the bus or walk to main entrance from the car park…… you take care of yourself…….let someone else get upset…… you hold on to your memories, good and bad make us who we are…. . I lost one of my friends just last week to it, they think he caught it on a bus while on holiday…….7 days after he got back we lost him…. stay strong my friend. I hope your health improves soon my friend you look after yourself & thank you for the kind words. This year has seen me as a person change, i don't know if that good or bad because i don't know myself, I'm so angry at how my dad's passing went without closure & that he died alone & afraid, the images come in my mind & then i get angry, I'm talking to a councillor about this but they at loss because this isn't about coping after loss it's about having closure taken away from me. For years i had a bad relationship with my dad he wasn't the kindest of men to me but great to my mom and his family, he never accepted me for being mentally ill & belittled me or hit me in public many times if i misbehaved as he wouldn't accept i had bipolar despite it not being known back then you'd thought he'd taken me see doctor explain my OCD & mood swings but he swept it under the carpet. However when he had fall broke hip in 2017 in hospital post operation he completely changed, he embraced me hugged me got emotional & became a dad i wanted growing up & we eventually grew close during those last 4 years. If the dad who i grew up with had passed away i wouldn't be as upset i would have been well you didn't respect me or get me the help i needed so go to hell but because he changed & we bonded & became close his loss hit me hard it's like i finally have a dad who shows me love and affection & now that been taken from me. Maybe i just rambling & feeling sorry for myself, i should be thankful i had those 4 years but i just feel at a loss because i couldn't be there hold his hand and say i forgive you & love you. I feel very sorry for what you had been going through (and others on this forum, too). I get a little bit of hurt every time you write about your anguish and pain.
I am sending you and everyone else who has lost friends and family a warm hug. I just hope you can at least cherish the few good memories you got. From the beginning, this whole disaster could have been avoided by a little common sense (starting off with a ban on the sale of raw bats for food), but every day it continues, there is less and less of that around. I actually would not have believed a situation like this would be handled this badly if someone told me before it happened. One just feels very helpless, seeing all the suffering, and knowing there is much more to come.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 21, 2021 8:09:01 GMT
I hope your health improves soon my friend you look after yourself & thank you for the kind words. This year has seen me as a person change, i don't know if that good or bad because i don't know myself, I'm so angry at how my dad's passing went without closure & that he died alone & afraid, the images come in my mind & then i get angry, I'm talking to a councillor about this but they at loss because this isn't about coping after loss it's about having closure taken away from me. For years i had a bad relationship with my dad he wasn't the kindest of men to me but great to my mom and his family, he never accepted me for being mentally ill & belittled me or hit me in public many times if i misbehaved as he wouldn't accept i had bipolar despite it not being known back then you'd thought he'd taken me see doctor explain my OCD & mood swings but he swept it under the carpet. However when he had fall broke hip in 2017 in hospital post operation he completely changed, he embraced me hugged me got emotional & became a dad i wanted growing up & we eventually grew close during those last 4 years. If the dad who i grew up with had passed away i wouldn't be as upset i would have been well you didn't respect me or get me the help i needed so go to hell but because he changed & we bonded & became close his loss hit me hard it's like i finally have a dad who shows me love and affection & now that been taken from me. Maybe i just rambling & feeling sorry for myself, i should be thankful i had those 4 years but i just feel at a loss because i couldn't be there hold his hand and say i forgive you & love you. I feel very sorry for what you had been going through (and others on this forum, too). I get a little bit of hurt every time you write about your anguish and pain.
I am sending you and everyone else who has lost friends and family a warm hug. I just hope you can at least cherish the few good memories you got. From the beginning, this whole disaster could have been avoided by a little common sense (starting off with a ban on the sale of raw bats for food), but every day it continues, there is less and less of that around. I actually would not have believed a situation like this would be handled this badly if someone told me before it happened. One just feels very helpless, seeing all the suffering, and knowing there is much more to come.
Thank you for the kind words, yeah it not going away anytime soon & all we can do is what were already doing but it's taken it's toll on me this year, my cousin said been 10 months since dad died about time i got over it started living again he said I'm existing & stopping myself from being happy & said I'm depressing.
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Post by johnhurtdoctor on Nov 21, 2021 9:08:21 GMT
I feel very sorry for what you had been going through (and others on this forum, too). I get a little bit of hurt every time you write about your anguish and pain.
I am sending you and everyone else who has lost friends and family a warm hug. I just hope you can at least cherish the few good memories you got. From the beginning, this whole disaster could have been avoided by a little common sense (starting off with a ban on the sale of raw bats for food), but every day it continues, there is less and less of that around. I actually would not have believed a situation like this would be handled this badly if someone told me before it happened. One just feels very helpless, seeing all the suffering, and knowing there is much more to come.
Thank you for the kind words, yeah it not going away anytime soon & all we can do is what were already doing but it's taken it's toll on me this year, my cousin said been 10 months since dad died about time i got over it started living again he said I'm existing & stopping myself from being happy & said I'm depressing. I disagree with your cousin I don't think there are any rules to how long you should grieve. Take it at your own pace. You will have good days & bad days, eventually there will be mor good days than bad.
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Post by tuigirl on Nov 21, 2021 10:31:48 GMT
Thank you for the kind words, yeah it not going away anytime soon & all we can do is what were already doing but it's taken it's toll on me this year, my cousin said been 10 months since dad died about time i got over it started living again he said I'm existing & stopping myself from being happy & said I'm depressing. I disagree with your cousin I don't think there are any rules to how long you should grieve. Take it at your own pace. You will have good days & bad days, eventually there will be mor good days than bad. Agreed. That is BS. Everyone is different, and everyone grieves in their own way. I never understood how anyone could put up goal posts like in a race. I even had an arguement with my mum about it because she is very conservative and still followed the "wearing black for 6 months" rule after grandma died.
Whoever made up that rule, which criteria did they use and how could they just determine that you stop grieving for a parent after 6 months time? You have a valid reason for why you feel how you feel. You have to resolve this in your own way and in your own time. And yeah, I do know this "you have to stop being depressed and start being happy again!" If I got a Euro for everytime someone said this to me, I could stop working and buy myself a full time holiday home in a sunny and warm place.
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Post by aussiedoctorwhofan on Dec 2, 2021 2:56:48 GMT
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Post by Deleted on Dec 2, 2021 8:19:32 GMT
Just as you predicted bro, i swear governments are imbeciles, if your a pillock become a politician.
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Post by tuigirl on Dec 2, 2021 8:48:55 GMT
18 cases. How cute. (Sarcasm.)
Hang in there, mate.
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Post by aussiedoctorwhofan on Dec 2, 2021 9:19:36 GMT
18 cases. How cute. (Sarcasm.)
Hang in there, mate.
Cheeky..
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Post by Kestrel on Dec 9, 2021 16:21:42 GMT
I dunno if any of y'all have taken hydrocodone/Vicodin, but I'm stuck taking some every now and then for my things, and... it really sucks. So I try to avoid it as much as possible. But goddamn. Like, if you're unfamiliar, this is gonna sound really weird... but these graphic nightmares are really something else. I don't know how to process them. I think I'm gonna try my hand at writing some horror fantasy based on 'em, albeit toned down a bit to be more playable. Because, and I cannot stress this enough, goddamn. Like what else am I supposed to do with a dream where {Spoiler} one of the least-grotesque moments is a bloody rat clawing it's way up my esophagus and out my mouth? Fffffffffffffffffffff---
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Post by grinch on Dec 9, 2021 16:24:08 GMT
I dunno if any of y'all have taken hydrocodone/Vicodin, but I'm stuck taking some every now and then for my things, and... it really sucks. So I try to avoid it as much as possible. But goddamn. Like, if you're unfamiliar, this is gonna sound really weird... but these graphic nightmares are really something else. I don't know how to process them. I think I'm gonna try my hand at writing some horror fantasy based on 'em, albeit toned down a bit to be more playable. Because, and I cannot stress this enough, goddamn. Like what else am I supposed to do with a dream where {Spoiler} one of the least-grotesque moments is a bloody rat clawing it's way up my esophagus and out my mouth? Fffffffffffffffffffff--- Jesus. I mean, all I can really suggest is do what you already suggested. Use said dreams a form of creative inspiration.
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Post by bonehead on Dec 9, 2021 16:27:28 GMT
I dunno if any of y'all have taken hydrocodone/Vicodin, but I'm stuck taking some every now and then for my things, and... it really sucks. So I try to avoid it as much as possible. But goddamn. Like, if you're unfamiliar, this is gonna sound really weird... but these graphic nightmares are really something else. I don't know how to process them. I think I'm gonna try my hand at writing some horror fantasy based on 'em, albeit toned down a bit to be more playable. Because, and I cannot stress this enough, goddamn. Like what else am I supposed to do with a dream where {Spoiler} one of the least-grotesque moments is a bloody rat clawing it's way up my esophagus and out my mouth? Fffffffffffffffffffff--- Sorry to hear of your predicament currently. I hope things sort themselves out soon, at least to some extent. But please do make use of these disturbing images and write them into horror stories. Doing that might even purge them from your system a little.
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Post by Kestrel on Dec 9, 2021 16:46:27 GMT
Hah! Right. It's been a while since I've tried my hand at fiction... as one might expect, my tendency to overwrite is always a demon to be slain, but I'm still gonna go for a short story or two. Otherwise these nightmares just... linger. Forever. Not necessarily the details, but the sensations.
Like, I don't think I've ever seen a rat up close, but I know exactly what their tiny little claws feel like.
What's especially weird is that they're almost episodic. Like I'll be running from one terror to another, pointedly not waking up, and then when I finally do wake up... if I go back to sleep they pick up right where they left off.
Fortunately I don't need to take hydrocodone very often (it's basically what I take with a few other things when the pain is especially bad) and mainly get by with tramadol -- which has far fewer side effects, but is less effective against more severe pain. Like y'all notice how I sometimes seem kind of out of it here and just keep flinging word after word, paragraph after paragraph at the screen? That's not me speaking: that's the tramadol.
Saw a new specialist last week and have some new stuff to try, so hopefully I'll get to the point where the hydrocodone is never necessary. But, man, this is definitely one of the strangest and most incomprehensible side effects I've ever dealt with.
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Post by tuigirl on Dec 9, 2021 17:18:54 GMT
Hah! Right. It's been a while since I've tried my hand at fiction... as one might expect, my tendency to overwrite is always a demon to be slain, but I'm still gonna go for a short story or two. Otherwise these nightmares just... linger. Forever. Not necessarily the details, but the sensations. Like, I don't think I've ever seen a rat up close, but I know exactly what their tiny little claws feel like. What's especially weird is that they're almost episodic. Like I'll be running from one terror to another, pointedly not waking up, and then when I finally do wake up... if I go back to sleep they pick up right where they left off. Fortunately I don't need to take hydrocodone very often (it's basically what I take with a few other things when the pain is especially bad) and mainly get by with tramadol -- which has far fewer side effects, but is less effective against more severe pain. Like y'all notice how I sometimes seem kind of out of it here and just keep flinging word after word, paragraph after paragraph at the screen? That's not me speaking: that's the tramadol. Saw a new specialist last week and have some new stuff to try, so hopefully I'll get to the point where the hydrocodone is never necessary. But, man, this is definitely one of the strangest and most incomprehensible side effects I've ever dealt with. Oh wow. That is crazy. I can relate, since I also had some bad side effects with some of my medication, but what you describe sounds pretty graphic and awful.
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Post by Ela on Dec 10, 2021 18:19:22 GMT
Hah! Right. It's been a while since I've tried my hand at fiction... as one might expect, my tendency to overwrite is always a demon to be slain, but I'm still gonna go for a short story or two. Otherwise these nightmares just... linger. Forever. Not necessarily the details, but the sensations. Like, I don't think I've ever seen a rat up close, but I know exactly what their tiny little claws feel like. What's especially weird is that they're almost episodic. Like I'll be running from one terror to another, pointedly not waking up, and then when I finally do wake up... if I go back to sleep they pick up right where they left off. Fortunately I don't need to take hydrocodone very often (it's basically what I take with a few other things when the pain is especially bad) and mainly get by with tramadol -- which has far fewer side effects, but is less effective against more severe pain. Like y'all notice how I sometimes seem kind of out of it here and just keep flinging word after word, paragraph after paragraph at the screen? That's not me speaking: that's the tramadol. Saw a new specialist last week and have some new stuff to try, so hopefully I'll get to the point where the hydrocodone is never necessary. But, man, this is definitely one of the strangest and most incomprehensible side effects I've ever dealt with. I didn't even know that was a side effect. I've taken it on occasion and never had that side effect. Hope you find a solution.
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Post by aussiedoctorwhofan on Dec 10, 2021 20:58:50 GMT
I dunno if any of y'all have taken hydrocodone/Vicodin, but I'm stuck taking some every now and then for my things, and... it really sucks. So I try to avoid it as much as possible. But goddamn. Like, if you're unfamiliar, this is gonna sound really weird... but these graphic nightmares are really something else. I don't know how to process them. I think I'm gonna try my hand at writing some horror fantasy based on 'em, albeit toned down a bit to be more playable. Because, and I cannot stress this enough, goddamn. Like what else am I supposed to do with a dream where {Spoiler} one of the least-grotesque moments is a bloody rat clawing it's way up my esophagus and out my mouth? Fffffffffffffffffffff--- My best made has been on tramadol and a few others for years now, two facial reconstructions and spinal surgery, plus full body sciatica, he used to be just over 6 foot 6 he is now about 6 foot 4-5..
Endones are like sweets for him now.
In Australia in bold letters on the boxes of tramadol it says "Warning-this will bring on suicidal thoughts". are there any such warnings on your box?
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Post by Kestrel on Dec 11, 2021 17:22:19 GMT
Nah, so such warnings. In general (from what I've heard) pharmaceuticals in the US are subject to much less regulation and oversight than many places elsewhere. I can't really comment on tramadol inciting suicidal thoughts, though, as personally I've had those daily since I was young enough to understand the concept.
Also, yikes. Spinal surgeries can be really rough. I hope your friend is at least improving? I've certainly heard some real horror stories about it.
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Post by aussiedoctorwhofan on Dec 11, 2021 20:57:00 GMT
Nah, so such warnings. In general (from what I've heard) pharmaceuticals in the US are subject to much less regulation and oversight than many places elsewhere. I can't really comment on tramadol inciting suicidal thoughts, though, as personally I've had those daily since I was young enough to understand the concept. Also, yikes. Spinal surgeries can be really rough. I hope your friend is at least improving? I've certainly heard some real horror stories about it.
He has PTSD and hasn't worked for about 8 years, he basically is a stay at home dad to their boys. yeah, the warning stickers here are all over the boxes PLUS with the tramadol here the chemist, while you are there, calls the doctors office to confirm the prescription is legit. They also question you as to why you need this etc. A bit too much IMHO.
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Post by tuigirl on Dec 13, 2021 10:37:34 GMT
I feel like run over by a bus. We got our COVID 3rd time booster shot on Saturday. The company boss had secured some Moderna vaccine and the company GP vaccinated the staff. I had some trepidations about this because I always get side effects and Moderna has a higher dosage. So now I had three different vaccination shots, and I can say that Astra Zeneca by far was the worst and I had 3 days of fever afterwards. Now is not as bad, but my arm hurts, I feel exhausted and sleeping last night was something else. Woke up this morning drenched in sweat and had some pretty bad nightmares. Really graphic, about some white invaders slaughtering my native tribe, taking all the kids as slaves, with lots of gore. Funny thing was, this dream worked on 2 levels, I was simultaneously visiting a museum looking at the slaver irons and read about the cruel history of what had happened, while at the same time, I was beaten, saw all the blood and violence and was clapped in said irons. No idea what was in that injection. But this was something else. Needless to say, taking the day off work today.
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Post by mark687 on Dec 13, 2021 10:43:00 GMT
I feel like run over by a bus. We got our COVID 3rd time booster shot on Saturday. The company boss had secured some Moderna vaccine and the company GP vaccinated the staff. I had some trepidations about this because I always get side effects and Moderna has a higher dosage. So now I had three different vaccination shots, and I can say that Astra Zeneca by far was the worst and I had 3 days of fever afterwards. Now is not as bad, but my arm hurts, I feel exhausted and sleeping last night was something else. Woke up this morning drenched in sweat and had some pretty bad nightmares. Really graphic, about some white invaders slaughtering my native tribe, taking all the kids as slaves, with lots of gore. Funny thing was, this dream worked on 2 levels, I was simultaneously visiting a museum looking at the slaver irons and read about the cruel history of what had happened, while at the same time, I was beaten, saw all the blood and violence and was clapped in said irons. No idea what was in that injection. But this was something else. Needless to say, taking the day off work today. Take it easy Regards mark687
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