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Post by johnhurtdoctor on Nov 3, 2020 22:08:19 GMT
Going to be perfectly honest here but when it came to the previous lockdown, I felt like I handled it rather well. I think because I consider myself a rather solitary (and to be honest quite sullen) person having to stay confined didn’t bother me so much. My family are a big believer in the phrase ‘stiff upper lip” after all. But now the thought of a second lockdown and having to endure the next few months in this unchanging, monotonous state is really getting to me. It’s almost as if this last year never happened because I’m exactly in the same position I was since I graduated last year. Stuck in this stagnating state with nothing but my thoughts to occupy myself with. It sounds melodramatic I know and plenty of you are probably rolling your eyes at this but sometimes I feel like it’s just anger and loathing that’s keeping me going. I mean I used to write comedic sketches as a hobby but I haven’t done that for ages now due to feeling so empty with nothing but contempt left in me. Going for my daily walks does nothing for me now once I realised that no matter how far I walk I have to come back and confront what my life has become. I’m sorry if this comes across like a rant. I really am. Just needed to get this off my chest and I know there are people out there in far worse a state at least I can see my family (and perhaps I’m just a ungrateful s*d) but I just needed to get this off my chest. I like to think things may get better because I’m quite frankly dreading 2021. Don't be sorry, this thread is a place where we can talk about how we feel. I was also OK during the previous lockdown, I am lucky that I can carry on working without furlough etc. But even though I know its the right thing to do I just feel a bit tired of it all this time round. So the first thing I have done is book some leave, a week off which has made me feel much better. Work has been incredibly busy during the last few weeks which has been draining being at home throughout & trying to separate my workspace from my living space. I too understand how its easy to feel ungrateful because your own situation may not be as bad as others, but it is all relative & we shouldn't feel guilty by comparing ourselves to others.
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Post by muckypup on Nov 3, 2020 23:09:41 GMT
Going to be perfectly honest here but when it came to the previous lockdown, I felt like I handled it rather well. I think because I consider myself a rather solitary (and to be honest quite sullen) person having to stay confined didn’t bother me so much. My family are a big believer in the phrase ‘stiff upper lip” after all. But now the thought of a second lockdown and having to endure the next few months in this unchanging, monotonous state is really getting to me. It’s almost as if this last year never happened because I’m exactly in the same position I was since I graduated last year. Stuck in this stagnating state with nothing but my thoughts to occupy myself with. It sounds melodramatic I know and plenty of you are probably rolling your eyes at this but sometimes I feel like it’s just anger and loathing that’s keeping me going. I mean I used to write comedic sketches as a hobby but I haven’t done that for ages now due to feeling so empty with nothing but contempt left in me. Going for my daily walks does nothing for me now once I realised that no matter how far I walk I have to come back and confront what my life has become. I’m sorry if this comes across like a rant. I really am. Just needed to get this off my chest and I know there are people out there in far worse a state at least I can see my family (and perhaps I’m just a ungrateful s*d) but I just needed to get this off my chest. I like to think things may get better because I’m quite frankly dreading 2021. its fine not at all rant like, we all need to get stuff out there sometimes....... the only comfort i can give is its better to be locked up tight that get covid is not fun, i know/knew 8 people who have had it 3 died, 2 were terribly sick but got over it but still not better months later, 2 said it was like flu, and 1 tested positive but never got any major symptoms ....... there is nothing good on the horizon for months, how ever we try n tackle it next year.......life has changed but please always put stuff on here contact us and generally just do what ever to get you through the days......... a friend of mine who had to self isolate in wales earlier in the year away from his family said it best, excuse the language but ....well we mostly adults.......in body at least "lock down was f***in awesome i woke when i wanted, i w*nked when i wanted, it watched what i wanted and ate n drank like it was xmas everyday and spent 4 months in nothing but my underwear most of the time......." perhaps we should all try doing that this lockdown..... try n stay safe, n never be afraid to shout n scream we can listen if not always help
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Post by tuigirl on Nov 7, 2020 8:37:33 GMT
Everyone on here openly talking about their anxieties and concerns... my thoughts are with you. We are confronted with a natural disaster, although one happening in very slow motion, and I assume that a feeling of dread would be normal. You guys are not alone. My anxiety levels are climbing, too. I still have to work my usual hours because we are doing the COVID tests, but due to lockdown, all my normal coping strategies are closed down. Plus it is autumn now, and since I work during daylight hours, could only do my long walks in the cold and the dark, which is not exactly helping my mood, either. I have been joining my online Zoom Yoga class twice this week (the studio is closed, like all gymns, but the Yoga lady is at least doing the online classes), and I think it helps, but it might not be enough. Yesterday at work I was close to a panic attack, although nothing really happened, it just slowly crept up on me. Last night, I barely slept. There is not even anything tangible that is going around in my mind, it is just a heightened sense of uneasy and anxiety... like sleeping in my ice age cave, knowing there is a sabre toothed cat out there, not quite hearing any suspicious sounds, but knowing that predator is looking for a meal. Which is basically true for the virus, because we are nothing but an easy food source. Being confronted with all the issues and worries at work, I have not much chance to escape the situation. I am very worried about the mutated strains from mink in Denmark, I read Fauci's paper and know of the issues with cat corona virus (no relation to COVID, thank God) and it's deadly mutations (since I am working at a veterinary lab, I have to condemn a dozen cats a day to death if the test result comes back positive for the mutation; cats with FIP are put down in most cases, because although there is treatment available, this is VERY expensive and costs thousands of Euros). I see that we are at total capacity at our lab, we cannot take the strain any longer, and the raw materials for the machines are running out because the producers of lab materials cannot keep up with the immense demand. Thinking about this, I should be catatonic with fear. I admire everyone who is cruising through this easily. I also had a chat last week with a good friend (and ex- flatmate) of mine from Sri Lanka. He spend his youth in refugee camps and one of his friends became a suicide bomber (he is Tamil). He says yes, the situation right now is inconvenient, but he had far worse experiences and we just have to battle through this as best as we can. Talking to him brings things back into perspective. I am not sure I would have made it through forced migration and refugee camps. Although it also made me smile, because I remembered that moment when we were at a summer festival and camping in a very densely populated camp ground with not enough showers and toilets for everyone- and he just shook his head, laughed and said he is feeling like coming back to his refugee camp and is surprised we first world people do this for entertainment purposes. So yeah, in an ideal world, we would just man up and get over our first world problems. Easier said than done. I have no idea how this will go on, but I am very much aware that the whole situation will last at least another year. Even if we get a working vaccination in time, it will take at least a year to have most people vaccinated (this is what our health ministry is estimating). I dread another year of this. At least at the moment, I try to cope by doing my online Yoga, by not watching or reading any news when at home, trying to take "time outs" of no internet or social media and crawling into my safe spaces of pop culture entertainment. Painting my Warhammer army, listening to audio books, reading some light no-brain novels, and watching some old nostalgia TV series. Just finished Monk. Yesterday, I have seen Prime now has Star Trek Voyager. Just the illusion of going back to an earlier time might help. Today, I am going to switch off my phone, and restrict my social media and just cozy up in my bubble with my chosen entertainment. Fortifying the cave. Ignoring the roar of the sabre toothed cat outside. Please keep safe everyone. I am sending warm virtual hugs to all of you.
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Post by nucleusofswarm on Nov 7, 2020 11:28:12 GMT
These are trying times. As john, mucky and others have said, this thread is a place to get anxieties off your chest. There's no shame in it.
As I've said throughout this pandemic, know that there is a lot of hard work going on to get us on the road back, and we are closer now than we were back in March/April. We have improved substantially in our understanding of covid and how to treat it - while the infection rate climbs, the death rate remains more distant, and more people recover than die. Vaccines and treatments are nearing the end of their clinical trials, meaning it won't be long before we can return to living and loving. And most of all, know that there are people on here, willing to listen and give you a shoulder to cry on if you need one.
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Post by number13 on Nov 7, 2020 14:28:25 GMT
Winter really doesn't help with this does it? Not just in terms of easier virus transmission when it's cold and damp, but with lockdown on top of the feeling of semi-lockdown that I know some people feel over winter every year even in normal years. But time and celestial geometry are on our side as well as science: in just six weeks the days will start to get lighter again and there is nothing the virus can do to stop that!
Reading the recent posts from our fellow DUers made me want to say a little something to lighten the lockdown mood, and here's something that crossed my mind a few days back when 'Lockdown II' started in England.
In 'Porridge' (a classic British comedy series set in a prison) the old lag Fletcher told his new cellmate how to cope with life "inside"... There were three rules: 1. Bide your time 2. Keep your nose clean and (looking straight at his old adversary Mr. McKay) 3.
{Spoiler}Don't let the bastards grind you down! Now, since in our case "they" are the virus, all three rules seemed excellent advice for lockdown, especially as rule 2 has gone from being metaphorical to literal! (Translation if needed: 'Keep your nose clean' is British slang for 'keep out of trouble'.)
Best wishes everyone.
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Post by Timelord007 on Nov 8, 2020 10:03:50 GMT
Lockdown if i was alone as such ican cope with as i suffer from social phobia, but being lockdown with my parents we argue over the slighest issue who thrive on drama or conflict is what takes toll on my mental health.
And to not see my niece & cousin breaks my heart because they are only ones i love & care about, my other niece hasn't rung or hardly texted me since March, that what i get being like a second dad a big fat two finger salute.
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Post by muckypup on Nov 8, 2020 12:01:21 GMT
Lockdown if i was alone as such ican cope with as i suffer from social phobia, but being lockdown with my parents we argue over the slighest issue who thrive on drama or conflict is what takes toll on my mental health. And to not see my niece & cousin breaks my heart because they are only ones i love & care about, my other niece hasn't rung or hardly texted me since March, that what i get being like a second dad a big fat two finger salute. we love ya dude........ family is fickle, they come and go......we love them but they drive us mad at same time....... stay strong buddy
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Post by Timelord007 on Nov 8, 2020 13:13:37 GMT
Lockdown if i was alone as such ican cope with as i suffer from social phobia, but being lockdown with my parents we argue over the slighest issue who thrive on drama or conflict is what takes toll on my mental health. And to not see my niece & cousin breaks my heart because they are only ones i love & care about, my other niece hasn't rung or hardly texted me since March, that what i get being like a second dad a big fat two finger salute. we love ya dude........ family is fickle, they come and go......we love them but they drive us mad at same time....... stay strong buddy I can guarantee everytime i stick a Doctor Who audio on they dtart arguing, i stickbthe PS4 on they'll start arguing, they argue over not arguing bloody mad the pair of em. Doped up on anxiety meds as well as my bipolar meds that's how bad i am at minute, although the anxiety meds have calmed me bit like Ozzy lol.
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Post by number13 on Nov 9, 2020 12:35:05 GMT
I know the whole planet is talking about this story but here it is anyway for our record:
So incredibly impressive, a vaccine barely 10 months from discovery of a new virus.
(As this is primarily a 'Doctor Who' forum, you'll understand that one of my favourite Who quotes instantly popped into my head, from Leela: 'It is better to believe in science.')
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Post by Ela on Nov 10, 2020 17:16:19 GMT
It concerns me that both vaccines I've seen discussed as being possibly successful require two doses. I foresee problems arising for people trying to get the second dose in a timely manner.
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Post by tuigirl on Nov 14, 2020 9:47:29 GMT
I have quite a few concerns about the vaccines. I am following the development closely and read up on the scientific papers.
Maybe I should quit that, since it does not help me with my anxiety....
Needless to say, I will not be among the first who will line up to get the shot. I am also apprehensive about the antibody treatment since I read a pretty scary publication yesterday.
Sorry that I am raining on parades here, but when I am anxious, my brain just tends to focus mainly on the things that could go wrong than on those that could go right.
Maybe I should just stay here and hide under my blanket until this is over...
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Post by aussiedoctorwhofan on Nov 15, 2020 21:44:32 GMT
Damn.. In my home state of Adelaide, Australia. We have had 17 new cases over the last 3 days. :-(
That's huge for us. It's very frustrating because it appears to always be people from overseas coming back to Australia after "x" amount of time stuck over there.. U would think they would test them before the departure and if anything, stay there and deal with it.
:-(
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Post by tuigirl on Nov 16, 2020 18:01:58 GMT
Damn.. In my home state of Adelaide, Australia. We have had 17 new cases over the last 3 days. :-( That's huge for us. It's very frustrating because it appears to always be people from overseas coming back to Australia after "x" amount of time stuck over there.. U would think they would test them before the departure and if anything, stay there and deal with it. :-( I really wonder what part of "Infectious" "Disease" is so hard to grasp....
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Post by aussiedoctorwhofan on Nov 16, 2020 21:34:32 GMT
Damn.. In my home state of Adelaide, Australia. We have had 17 new cases over the last 3 days. :-( That's huge for us. It's very frustrating because it appears to always be people from overseas coming back to Australia after "x" amount of time stuck over there.. U would think they would test them before the departure and if anything, stay there and deal with it. :-( I really wonder what part of "Infectious" "Disease" is so hard to grasp.... So we got an update from the Premier this morning at a press conference, thousands tested yesterday (?) only 1 positive so far.. I am 100% still working from home for the next 2 weeks. I have the big screen tv next to the pc desk.. I have the fridge just behind me.. I am good to go ..
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Post by tuigirl on Nov 17, 2020 7:10:42 GMT
One of my friends from my youth just posted a tin-hat COVID meme on her Facebook wall. I gave her a strongly worded telling-off. And told her if that was not a joke, I would immediately de-friend her. Needless to say I am fully awake now and my blood pressure has reached the highest levels for the past 2 weeks. I cannot express how much this upsets me and how sick I am about these COVIDIOTs.
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Post by aussiedoctorwhofan on Nov 17, 2020 7:35:41 GMT
One of my friends from my youth just posted a tin-hat COVID meme on her Facebook wall. I gave her a strongly worded telling-off. And told her if that was not a joke, I would immediately de-friend her. Needless to say I am fully awake now and my blood pressure has reached the highest levels for the past 2 weeks. I cannot express how much this upsets me and how sick I am about these COVIDIOTs. I have a few on my bookface too- people I personally now .. If it comes down to it I will tell them they cannot be anywhere near my son. I will not hesitate.
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Post by Timelord007 on Nov 17, 2020 8:07:11 GMT
One of my friends from my youth just posted a tin-hat COVID meme on her Facebook wall. I gave her a strongly worded telling-off. And told her if that was not a joke, I would immediately de-friend her. Needless to say I am fully awake now and my blood pressure has reached the highest levels for the past 2 weeks. I cannot express how much this upsets me and how sick I am about these COVIDIOTs. I think for some people find humour as escapism to worrying events but with Covid it has impacted every single persons day to day lives which is no laughing matter. Not seeing my cousin& niece is torture at the moment like many families around the world so these memes aren't funny they just annoy because of the sacrifices each and every one of us has to make.
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Post by Timelord007 on Nov 17, 2020 8:14:45 GMT
One of my friends from my youth just posted a tin-hat COVID meme on her Facebook wall. I gave her a strongly worded telling-off. And told her if that was not a joke, I would immediately de-friend her. Needless to say I am fully awake now and my blood pressure has reached the highest levels for the past 2 weeks. I cannot express how much this upsets me and how sick I am about these COVIDIOTs. I have a few on my bookface too- people I personally now .. If it comes down to it I will tell them they cannot be anywhere near my son. I will not hesitate. Had mate of dad's joke covid has ruined his sex life staying two metres apart from his bit on the side cause don't get any withvthe wife & said he aye wearing a mask & was one the imbeciles drunk on Wednesday before second UK lockdown, i told him prats like you are the ones who break the rules & have caused this second wave, prats like you are why ican'tt visit my cousin & niece, prats like you are likely catch the virus get mild symtoms & infect others more severely because the rules don't apply to you. He said if wasn't social distancing he'd hit me so i said don't let that stop you I'll happily self isolate 2 weeks to teach him a lesson in manners. Never come into my house & threaten me because I'm mad, bad, dangerous, unpredictable bipolar sufferer & if i let my Mr Hyde out it won't end well for him. There's a reason I've done anger management.
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Post by aussiedoctorwhofan on Nov 18, 2020 0:37:56 GMT
I really wonder what part of "Infectious" "Disease" is so hard to grasp.... So we got an update from the Premier this morning at a press conference, thousands tested yesterday (?) only 1 positive so far.. I am 100% still working from home for the next 2 weeks. I have the big screen tv next to the pc desk.. I have the fridge just behind me.. I am good to go ..
So the big news this morning, Flinders University- 1 of the biggest campuses in my hometown has shut down because someone tested positive. It's a 10 min drive from my house and co incidentally right next to Flinders Hospital.. A local restaurant/pub was found to be "of interest" yesterday, its also literally a 5 minute walk from my old house around the corner. And it's day 2 of me working from home. Have spent about 2 hours with the I.T. people on the phone since yesterday morning because naturally nothing was working. I am using my work iPad as a telephone so that's fun.! :-(
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Post by aussiedoctorwhofan on Nov 18, 2020 2:18:45 GMT
So we got an update from the Premier this morning at a press conference, thousands tested yesterday (?) only 1 positive so far.. I am 100% still working from home for the next 2 weeks. I have the big screen tv next to the pc desk.. I have the fridge just behind me.. I am good to go ..
So the big news this morning, Flinders University- 1 of the biggest campuses in my hometown has shut down because someone tested positive. It's a 10 min drive from my house and co incidentally right next to Flinders Hospital.. A local restaurant/pub was found to be "of interest" yesterday, its also literally a 5 minute walk from my old house around the corner. And it's day 2 of me working from home. Have spent about 2 hours with the I.T. people on the phone since yesterday morning because naturally nothing was working. I am using my work iPad as a telephone so that's fun.! :-( Live press release now on all tv channels and radio etc here.. Full lockdown as of midnight tonight.. It's 12:45pm now.. Only essential service workers are allowed out (looks like me as an essential service worker will be working from home longer than 2 weeks argh) - and groceries etc.. far out.
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